Wednesday

This week has been busy! Things are going ok, but yesterday my "routine" was all blown away. So trying again today...my emotional stress is really taking a toll on me. We are doing soooo poorly financially. WHEN WILL THINGS GET BETTER?! We're surviving, but barely. It's sooo hard. Oh well. I just wish we could get some sort of miracle. I know through these hard times I really have to lean on GOD and just learn to let him help. B/C w/out Him, I can't.

Breakfast: Egg, glass of 2% milk

Monday

Exercise: Sizzler (35 min. interval/cardio w/weights), 15 min. toning-abs, legs

Breakfast: Grilled cheese sandwich/2 tbsp salsa, 1 piece of jerkey
Lunch: 1 hot dog w/mustard, 1/2 c. baby red potatoes


Just woke up from a nap, Austin is still napping so I'm drinking some chocolate milk...hey it's ok, its 2% milk lol! No seriously I'm doing good today. Yesterday I was just depressed and Travis could tell and I asked him for help, b/c I can't keep going on like that, it would make me sooo unhappy. So he and I sat down and talked and today I feel much better. I'm trying some things he suggested and so far today they are working so today I'm pretty happy.

something to stick with...

having trouble again w/my lack of exercise motivation. Don't we all? Well anyways, I realize my problem,I do..it's just hard sometimes to keep that inspiration alive. Soo I'm going to start jotting things down everyday to stay accountable. It's spring break right now, but only a couple more days and hopefully by then I'll be back and ready to go. I am doing better today. Last nights disgustment was enough lol...naa, it wasn't THAT bad, but ya know, we are our own worst critic. So, here's to bein sexy!!

My daughter...

She has had weight issues for a long time now, it was ok for a time so we just thought 'welll...a growth spurt?", but Travis and I have both been noticing that she just keeps putting on weight. She's not active or anything..so that kinda adds to it. The other morning before school I had a heart to heart w/her. She is 112 now...and considering her height, she's overweight. I knew it, well we both knew it, but it's just something we didn't want to have to encounter. Anyways I had a talk w/her, and she asked me if she could do some of my workouts that I have and I told her yes, that would be a great start! And she said she was going to make good food choices at school. Soooo....yesterday she came home and did a Denise Austin dance video!!! I was sooooo proud of her!! She told me that if she lost two lbs this week she was going to get herself a pedometer...she really seems excited about it! I just don't want her having health issues. I am trying to do somethings w/her so she'll stay motivated. She don't like being outside, I don't have a problem w/that, but there's no activity inside. She said she'd rather do dance workouts than be outside...well that's ok w/me. I just want her to be active, and healthy. I want her to have a long life, a joyful one. I don't want people teasing her,b/c they already are. I want the best for her! SOoooo here's to my babydoll!!!

Post here for a while...

My life is so crazy right now...hence the name of my blog lol. Just tryin to keep up w/it all. I'm going back to school right now, tryin to get a hold on my workouts/eating/whatever. While raisin my kids and tryin to be a good wife. God...can I do it all? I hope so, it's hard, but I've learned to take life one step at a time. One thing that is helping me is being organized. I need organization at the moment and it's helping. I'll leave you w/those thoughts! Heavy stuff right?

My thoughts (if ya dont like em get the fck outta here!)

I am so worried about Britney. She has been through a lot, I can't even image going through so much like she did at such a young age. So much pressure from everyone, when did she get to decide? Never, she's always been told what to do. It was clear the only reason Kevin was w/her was for her money, obviously. But it just saddens me to see everything thats happened in the past week to her. Papparazzi, her ex tryin to suck every penny he can out of her, too much freakin drama. I just worry about her. I've no doubt that she loves her babies more than anything. I have no words of wisdom, I just wish so much for her, she is my idol, my hero...how can everyone let this happen. I understand that paparazzi has a job, BUT get the fuckin pics and let her go about her business...but nooooo they have to film her every wakin second of the day. How would I react to that? I'd go a little mental too, have a breakdown. In my opinion it's them that have done this to her...now she's out w/Adnan (player player player)...all he's doing is selling pics of her to the tabloids...if she knows or not...no clue BUT..I just want Britney to go home, take some time, a LOT of time to destress and get her life in order, that way her babies can come back home to her and she can get on w/her music career...I am in NO way judging her. How can I? I make mistakes every day of my life. She is human. I can just look at her though and tell she is not happy. I wish that upon her!!! !!!